The life and times of a 34 year old Pokemon

[Spidermew]

I was never a fast spriter. It takes for me time and as little external stress as possible for me to feel like i can get in the zone and just make art. But after a while my hands seemed to wear out faster and faster and would cramp up after maybe being half way done with one frame. This was just one of my frustrations, but i didn't know what it was. When no one had the time to code Green Lantern Lucario for me, i used that as an excuse to just disappear like i had from every other community i tried to be a part of online.

But in the real world at the time my mom was on the brink of death, my grandmother fading into her old age and becoming more child like and i got ripped off by CSUDH who wouldn't let me have my BA because of a paperwork error on a teacher's part. At the time also my Rheumatoid Arthritis was starting and I didn't know what it was and just figured the pain was me being weak or a crybaby if i complained about it. So in the back of my mind someplace i drifted away from things i enjoyed doing because it would hurt too much. When my mom died it sent me into a deep depression, one i have yet to climb back out of.

I love my Grandmother. When my mom died and my brother got married I was the one who stayed to take care of her. No one in my family wanted to do it. I tried so hard to take care of my Grandmother; She would refuse to wash her hands with soap, wanted to touch everything all the time, and couldn't stand it when i wanted to stay up past 10. So i cooked, and cleaned and jumped up to her every need when she walked in and wanted something. I did my best to do it with a smile on my face but i wasn't great at it. We usually got along but she loved to complain about everything to everyone. Our small time squabbles and bicker-banter would be the only news she had and she would tell everyone about it. My Aunt Rebecca twisted my grandmother's complaining and demonized to the rest of the family. They spread rumors about me to everyone, that i was dealing drugs, that i was abusive, that I had totally ruined her condo. In my 24 years of living here i only ever broke a few dishes, one toilet from leaning to the side and being too heavy, a couch from sleeping on it for 10 years, and a couple of chairs from being too heavy. The cats didn't leave the carepti in great shape and my mom did do some damage with her wheelchair while she was still alive. Why is my aunt Rebecca demonizing me? Because she wants to sell the condo and keep all the money for her self.

You see my Aunt Rebecca has manipulated my grandmother into giving her control over the will, the estate, and everything in regards to her legal life. Me and my brother were supposed to get my mother's share of the inheritance. But now my aunt is Evicting me so she can sell it, and use up the money now so none of us get anything but her. You see a little over a year ago now my grandmother was feeling dizzy and we took her to the ER, she had a stroke once before so we wanted to be sure she was ok. Well the hospital called Rebecca and she swooped in the day she was supposed to come home, with some random doctor to do a metal evaluation on grandmother while i was escorted out of her hospital room by 10 security guards who watched me and kept me surrounded, they were armed. The evaluator my aunt brought in said grandmother was mentally unfit to make her owin choices. So Rebecca ripped my grandmother out of there crying and screaming that she wanted to go home with me. My Aunt said she was going to take care of her but then a week later dumped her off with my other aunt in washington state.

Rebecca started the eviction process in december, right around christmas. And now cops are going to pull me out of her tomorrow morning if i'm not gone by then.
I have to start over now in a new city, friends are taking me in but i have to move to philadelphia. I wont have access to any of my medications, but worst of all I will be seperated from my Brother and my Cat. I am going to be packing up my computer today, to take on a greyhound with me on a 3/4 day trip to my new home, although i cannot bring my tv its connected to and don't know how long i'll have before i'll be able to get a new one, hopefully my friends will get me one.

I know that's a lot to read, but know that i feel bad that i just vanished from here, that is what is going on with my life if you are interested. Please pray for me to have a safe journey.

[laspacho]

That's crazy and terrible.  I wish you the best of luck.  Now that your on your own you'll see how much less stressful like is when your only dealing with your stuff.

Similar situation over money and possessions when my grandmother died.  My parents and Aunts and Uncles still do not speak to this day after many years over what happened with the money and such.

Be strong and you'll be back on your feet eventually and be better for it.
Go steal your cat back before you head out.

[O Ilusionista]

Oh that was sad. I wish all the best for you.
Stay strong.

[Mature4evr]

@Spidermew:
There exists an adage to the effect of God never placing us in a situation beyond our ability to manage, so might I offer you some advice?  In times of great personal turmoil, I've found consistent faith in a better tomorrow to be the most uplifting of strengths to harness.  And you are strong; that much is evident from the manner in which you've dealt with this level of dilemma.  You now possess the freedom to pave your own way, to focus on the progression and improvement of your future (and what a bright future it likely is).

Nevertheless, I will pray for you.  Some additional, divine intervention can't hurt matters.

[I-Skorp-I]

YIKES! I'm terribly sorry to hear this bro! You are DEFINITELY within my prayers man! It's safe to say that we ALL on this forum have been through and still going through misery and stress in our lifetime. But like Mature said it's up to us to fight through it and keep our head up! God bless!

[Spidermew]

@Spidermew:
There exists an adage to the effect of God never placing us in a situation beyond our ability to manage, so might I offer you some advice?  In times of great personal turmoil, I've found consistent faith in a better tomorrow to be the most uplifting of strengths to harness.  And you are strong; that much is evident from the manner in which you've dealt with this level of dilemma.  You now possess the freedom to pave your own way, to focus on the progression and improvement of your future (and what a bright future it likely is).

Nevertheless, I will pray for you.  Some additional, divine intervention can't hurt matters.

Well some divine intervention has helped!!



My brother took me over to his place, to keep me over there until we found out what they were going to do. My friend Joe was squatting at my place to deal with the cops and to tell us what happens.

The Cops never showed

My aunt never showed up, and i hear she's sick now.

Yall must of prayed really hard because I got to go home when i didn't think i would.

I was freaking out so hard, i've been an emotional wreck. This has been a lot of emotional abuse my aunt has put me though.

And my other aunt is considering letting my brother take grandmother, and if he can then we can fix all of this.

I Thank God! And thank you all for praying for me.

[I-Skorp-I]

Well some divine intervention has helped!!



My brother took me over to his place, to keep me over there until we found out what they were going to do. My friend Joe was squatting at my place to deal with the cops and to tell us what happens.

The Cops never showed

My aunt never showed up, and i hear she's sick now.

Yall must of prayed really hard because I got to go home when i didn't think i would.

I was freaking out so hard, i've been an emotional wreck. This has been a lot of emotional abuse my aunt has put me though.

And my other aunt is considering letting my brother take grandmother, and if he can then we can fix all of this.

I Thank God! And thank you all for praying for me.

The Heavenly Father ALWAYS allows you to stand tall at the end as long as you put it in his hands!

[Mature4evr]

This is indeed a splendid turn of events!

[Magma MK-II]

Talk about Karma huh!

[Spidermew]

And just like that everything flips back around.

Ive been kicked out, and have 15 days to arrange to get my stuff out of there.

Please more prayers are needed to get my grandmother home before then.

[Superjoker]

Damn Spidermew...

I remember when you started disappearing and thought it was really strange not to see you around here.

Sorry to hear about all that.

If anything I would like to tell you that yes God puts challenges in front us that will shape us.

It's all about how you get out of it, in this life it's nice to have friends and that, but mate at the end of the day you cannot wait for a 'hero' to save you.... you have to do it yourself. you have to overcome, how you come out of this will define you for the rest of your life.

this is your turning point, you have a villain, you ARE THE HERO!

you can do it, start by training your mind and being positive, even at the hardest times, there is always something positive in everything bad.

take care of yourself physically too, value your vessel, respect thy self.

believe in yourself and be strong, I promise it will come to an end and in the future you will never forget and never look back.

God bless 

[Tha Lando ( Le CROM )]

Aw man mew bro, I pray everything flips around for much better homie. Just keep moving forward bruh. Prayers are with you my friend.

[Spidermew]

Well im in Philly now.
Ive got a much bigger room then before
Later today my friends are taking me furniture shopping  for a proper desk
Things seem to be moving in a better direction but it just doesn't feel real yet.
I hope that i can eventually get a doctor and the right medication to manage my pain.
Maybe then i'll feel like i can make more then a single sprite once every few months.


I'll try to be more active around here. Thank you all for your prayers and well wishes.

[O Ilusionista]

Stay strong, buddy. Unfortunately, life is a steamroller. We always have to go ahead, even with the difficulties, or she has to go over us.